I don't know if you've ever gone through a time where you felt shriveled up inside. I hope not. But if you have, you'll understand where I've been lately.
I've been stuck in that dry place where words fail and fear prevails. Thus, my lack of soul-bearing blogging.
But I caught a drop of water the other day and wanted to share.
Part of the reason fear has prevailed is because I've run away from any God-stuff. The only other place to go is into "me-stuff" and that's a pretty shallow oasis.
But the other day I opened the Bible expecting the same old stirring up of dry dust in my soul. (Yep, I've still been in the Word and running from God.)
What I found instead was a charge. A lightening bolt, light bulb on, hallelujah type of ah-ha moment.
First came a bit of gulping at the Galatians 6, "A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life."
Gotta tell you, there was a lot of ouch as I understood that this current dry spell has been very much my doing. Sow fear and faithlessness, reap deadness. I have.
But then God's tender words washed away that guilt and a good bit of the dust in my soul. Galatians 6 continues with, "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
There was the charge. Don't stop. Don't give up. Don't listen to the critics and those who say you don't have what it takes.
Keep doing good. Keep walking forward in forgiveness no matter how many times it's required. Keep working on the next story and trust He will breathe His life into it. Keep parenting when it seems to do no good. Keep trying to reach out to fellow believers even when your hand gets snapped at. And keep loving when nothing is returned.
Because the reality is God said to keep doing good. And HE will cause a harvest to come at the proper time.
I'm still a little shaky on believing that promise, believing it really will come. I'd appreciate your prayers on that.
But this I know, God is good. In the happy times as in the dry.
And this I will keep doing... Remember. Do good. Look to Him for the results. Run toward instead of away from His loving arms.
Because He not only has a drop of water to share…He has living water in abundance.
I hope you'll join me in drinking deep and doing good